Death of a Spouse
Alone
I lost my husband 3 days after Christmas and then my mom 2 1/2 weeks later. My world is so upside down and some days all I do is cry. My husband died peacefully in his sleep after a long long time of being ill, so I'm thankful that his suffering is over but now what? It wasn't supposed to happen this way, we were supposed to grow old together, we were suppose to be at our sons graduation together. I just don't know what to do with myself. I can't pack away his things because it's too painful.
Comments:
Hello, Alone. I know exactly how you feel. When you lose your spouse, you lose a part of yourself. I am coping with it for the second time. I'll never have a grow old companion either. I have 3 dogs and they help me immensely. They are the part of him that I still have, he loved them totally. I also attend Mass and believe that I will someday enjoy the company of both of my husbands. However, I miss him incredibly, emotionally, physically, in all ways.
Take care and know there are others out there suffering also.
