Death of a Spouse
My First Love
I met my husband when we were in high school, I was only 11 yrs old and he was 13 yrs old. He started courting me when I was 13 yrs old, didn't go out with him until I'm 18 and then we got married when I was 19. On Sept. 7, 2009 he died in my arms while he was at the hospital for not even 48 hours that he was admitted. We were married for over 34 years and have 4 grown up children whose still living at home with us. At first I couldn't accept what happened but after that I remembered what he had told me that if he dies, he wanted it to be the same way like his father who died sleeping with no pain since he doesn't want to be a burden to his family. I know that he's in peace now and I know that he is happy that he died in my arms since he loves me so much. The only thing that bothers me was I took advantage of his love for me and didn't pay close attention to it. He always said to me that you'll miss me when I'm not there with you anymore but since I knew he's always with me so I just ignored it. Now, I felt what he told me, I already missed him and it's painful that we didn't know that this will happen so quick since he's not sick at all that you can say that he will die just like that. We didn't get a chance to say goodbye. I know that I have to be strong for our children now that I'm their only parent that will protect them. Boyet, you will always be in my heart and I'll never forget the way you cared for me whenever I told you that I don't feel good since I'm in MS remission since 1991. I took advantage of your presence and now you're gone. I'm so sorry that I hardly say that I love you. May you Rest in Peace and GOD Bless your Soul.
Gheeh your one and only love of your life
Gheeh your one and only love of your life
